It's this millisecond where fantasy & reality meet. You try your best to mix & blend them smoothly like paint on paper joining sea & sky at the horizon.
And a flying bird.
But you fail. Maybe because you haven't been given a chance. Or maybe because you're using the wrong kind of paint.
Or maybe because you dream too big.
Sometimes it's hurtful to see things for what they are.
Outside your head.
And what hurts more than missing someone is realising that they never were but a false impression you've had of them. And so it turns out you're
missing a ghost.
It sounds quite fanciful to be in love with a ghost, I know. But sometimes, some days, when all what you thought things meant fade away, you stand there naked, vulnerable & confused, and the imaginary doesn't seem to help cover you up.
Make believe breaks down at times.
It's a rainy day today, and you don't like the rain. But I'm not allowed to care anymore.
On occasions you are my ghost, while my grip on reality is too strong to think it'd be possible to will you into my life as a whole and entirety.
ReplyDeleteI'll meet you in a dream for now, and here is hope for later.
ReplyDelete"...I mean, I know you're happy at the moment, but I'll just ask you to...stop..and take a little from the outside and, realize how beautiful the things you've got now are and, appreciate them and, be grateful and...smile"
ReplyDeletethere's not such thing as dreaming too big!
ReplyDeleteI'd love to believe so, but I'd be dreaming too big.
ReplyDeleteSherief, :)
No no no no!! Dream too big!
ReplyDeleteP.S.- Salamtik, I'm sick too :(
Get well now! :) x
I relate so much it hurts.. not in a the bad sense.. but it sort of stings keda..
ReplyDeletei love your phrasing aya :)
xx
This is wonderful...I like it.
ReplyDeleteBravo ya Aya.
;o)
Dreaming too is such a good feeling, but it scares me
ReplyDeletethis is gripping. wonderful and terrible at the same time. you use words well!
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